I didn’t know it was the last time…
You would slurp noisily from the water bowl
You would crunch a stick in half
You would stumble into the bathroom to eat toilet paper
I would scoop your kibble out of the bin
I would take you on a walk around the backyard
I would give you your aspirin half an hour after lunch
Your little brother would snuggle up next to you
You would take a wrong turn trying to find the kitchen, while the others waited anxiously for the meal to be served
You would sniff the air
I would help you down the ramp
I would lead you to the fluffy bed in the living room
I would say, “Good dog!”
I would pick you up after you had fallen
If I had known, I would have paid attention to every detail, so I could always recall the moment with perfect clarity.
But if I had known, I wouldn’t have enjoyed the moment, because it would have been touched with a sense of loss.